THE BLUEBIRD OF SADNESS
By Charles Patrick Norman
The prison bus, the
Bluebird of Sadness, greets us
inside the fenced
sallyport gate with rear door open,
beckoning like the black
maw of the Beast, trudge now
up the three flimsy metal
steps to your fate.
Fifty men pack into the
Bluebird struggling with our
mesh bags of meager
belongings: hopeless trial transcripts,
Dear John letters, flip-flops,
empty deodorants, Gideon Bibles
given out by do-gooders
like magic protective talismans,
stacking ourselves in
broken seats, rusted shelves without
upholstery, steel grates
bolted over windows, no escape,
shipped like UPS, boxes
with leg irons, signed for,
except UPS deliverymen
don’t pack pistols and shotguns.
The old diesel wheezes,
the guard/driver grinds gears,
stomps the brakes, laughs
at laws of inertia staggering
those left standing,
catching their balance on seat backs
and shoulders, bracing
themselves for the eight-hour
transport to another
anonymous fenced-in pasture, a prison
not unlike the last one,
or the ones before, or after.
The heaving, rocking
Bluebird of Sadness groans, complain
up the incline interstate
entrance ramp, melds into
a racing river of rubber
and steel cans filled with
citizens traveling in parallel
lives, staring straight ahead,
talking on cell phones or
nodding their heads to silent
music beamed from
satellites, oblivious to their destinies,
Or the Bluebird of Sadness
packed with lost souls on
their way to Purgatory,
different destinations, yet the same.
We dread/desire the crash,
the out-of-control Bluebird
of Sadness tumbling along
the highway, scattering speeding
citizens to the Four Winds like ninepins or
dandelions,
the blue-clad, chained
sacrificial rams rotating like plaid
shirts, socks, blouses,
trousers inside the clothes dryer,
padlocked, unable to
escape the inevitable flames.
We plant our heads against
window grates to get a better look
at cars ad citizens
zipping past us to the left, an occasional
glimpse of legs and thighs
that generates hoots and catcalls from men
whose only solace comes
from their imaginings or other men.
Bladders fill and men form
lines in the aisle to a metal funnel
mounted waist-high at the
back of the bus, connected to a tube that
drains through a hole in
the floor, dribbling noxious urine
onto the pavement at sixty
miles per hour, Lexus, BMW, Benz,
Nissan, Kia and Chevrolet
plowing through yellow mist unaware.
Swerves and surges tumble
one lost soul from his attempted
perch over the funnel,
spraying others, curses, shoves,
and fists swinging,
grumbles, buttons up his wet trousers
(no zippers allowed in
prison), staggers past other full bladders
in the aisle, takes his
rusty, broken seat, awaits the coming fences,
open gates drawing in the
Bluebird of Sadness and her
load of flesh, to feed the
monster, Moloch, once again.