The past few weeks I have been fairly incommunicado with the outside
world, which is not an unusual circumstance for the majority of those serving
life in Florida
prisons, but it is for me. For most prisoners, imprisonment is a deep pit, a
sinkhole from which nothing escapes. My main focus has been on legal issues
pertaining to my imprisonment, researching in the law library for an upcoming
court case which I would rather not go into at this time, since the Florida DOC
is one of my most loyal readers. Instead, I will tell you about my recent
experience with the first Kairos program at this prison, a three-and-a half day Christian weekend that
occurred July 18 – 21st.
I went through the Kairos program in May,
1982, at Union C. I., Raiford, after several friends pestered me for two years
to sign up for it, saying it would change my life. It did. A considerable
portion of my survival in prison over the past thirty-plus years I owe to my
commitment to reaching out to others, something that was demonstrated and
learned by the good people who came in and brought Kairos into prison so many
years ago.
There are so many lost people in prison,
so much negativity and evil, so little hope, that when dedicated people from
“free society” volunteer their time to enter these fences to “love the
unlovable,” oftentimes it has a life-changing effect. Friendships and
relationships that I formed over thirty years ago have continued to the present
day, and still impact my life. I could go on and on.
Once you’ve gone through Kairos, you can
volunteer to work subsequent weekend programs, which is how I found myself at
the first Kairos held at Okaloosa C. I., an otherwise godforsaken place. Thirty
men were signed up to participate in this program, and another dozen or so
graduates from previous weekends at other locations volunteered to work.
Although one of the big draws of Kairos
weekends is the “outside” food brought in, the participants quickly discover
that the Kairos volunteers from the community bring something that is otherwise
unavailable in prison — unconditional love. The “free men” are dedicated
Christians associated with various local churches, but one’s religious
persuasion does not dictate the prisoners’ selection to participate. Some are
not Christians.
Men give a series of talks about various
aspects of spiritual life, group discussions ensue, and the men have a lot of
time to reflect on where their lives went wrong, and what kind of people they
want to be in the future. A lot of singing and prayers lift the men’s spirits
and focus their attention on higher things than the day-to-day confusion that
dominates prison life. For about twelve hours a day, all day Friday, Saturday
and Sunday, men are able to leave the “normal” prison life behind, and aspire
to a more positive existence.
Along with two other men, my “job” over
the weekend was in the “prayer room,” converted from the small chapel library.
Before each talk, the person giving the talk would come to the prayer room, and
several men would pray that God’s will would be done, and his words would touch
the men’s hearts. Never underestimate the power of prayer! It has a great
impact on those who are praying, for sure. I needed the rare opportunity to
focus on spiritual matters for a few days, to become re-involved in my prayer
life, and pray for my family and other friends and loved ones. The opportunity
gave me a needed boost.
In the meantime, I saw noticeable changes
for the better in a number of the thirty men enrolled in the program. Hardcore
convicts broke down and cried, and asked forgiveness for those they had wronged.
Will it last? I hope so. For some of the men, it is a life-changing event. For
others, they will succumb to the slippery slope and slide back into the pit. It
is a fact that over time, Kairos changes life in prison for the better. It
develops a community of positive role models in the prisons that affect others
for the better.
It is too early to expect many noticeable
improvements in this prison after just one Kairos. In the week since Kairos
ended, there have been several instances of gang violence, assaults, and
stabbings. Certain housing areas have been locked down in an attempt to cool
things off. Time will tell.
In the meantime, I will continue what
I’ve been doing, walking the straight and narrow, striving to improve myself,
and seeking freedom from this unjust imprisonment. I am deeply grateful for the
help of those who believe in me. God bless you all.
Charlie
The people of
Kairos have been called by God to bring the light of Christ to
the darkness of hearts that have been hardened and hurt…
We believe in bringing the love and forgiveness of Jesus
Christ to all incarcerated individuals, their families and to those who
work with them inside and outside the correctional institution, and that
our ministry experience develops in ourselves, inmates, their families, and
those that work with them the desire to continue one’s personal growth in Christian community…